Hating oneself

I sit here anxiously. I hate my weight. I’m going to a dr about it Monday. I’m worried he can’t help me and i can’t help myself. Therapy is going no where but I’m still going. I feel some self loathing coming on. I know my last post was upbeat but well you know how

Watch “Why do you gain weight with antidepressants and mood stabilizers?” on YouTube

https://youtu.be/S-NukJp_Nbs very interesting information. It makes me feel hopeless a little though.

Unexpected side effect. .. *** trigger alert

  I am thankful my fog is lifting and I have a proper diagnosis. I am not thankful for the clearer head that sees, feels, and knows all the bad choices, I made all those years trying to act as if I did not have mental health issues. I had gastric bypass five years ago.

Healthy body and healthy mind

This blog is for my personal journey. Well I’ve come road Crossroads were I’ve spent too much time being unhappy which had effected my weight. Its like the chicken or the egg… Which came first? The depression caused the weight gain or did the weight gain cause the depression. So now thus blog will have