Today is a bonus day off work. I’ve managed to accomplish some housework. Now I’m sitting here trying to remember who i use to be. The good and the bad. I think of my marriage and the damage i did to my children staying so long. He once told me he never really loved meContinue reading “Toxic”
Tag Archives: self worth
Good heart
This is so true today. I’m full of worry that I’m not good enough. I received a comment last week that I’m too hard on myself and it’s true. The thing is I try to be kind but some moments I just don’t know what that looks like. How do you start being realistic inContinue reading “Good heart”
My prayer for you
I struggle even on my good days with self worth but we all do deserve more.
Today is better
Today is better but I long for days where I am confident and free of indecisiveness. I’m going to work hard to get there.
Things I like about myself
I’m feeling very sorry for myself right now and I saw another blogger write about things they like about themselves. So I’m going to try it and see if it helps. I work hard. I’m a good mother. I’m empathetic. I care about this community. I have good intentions. I want to do good inContinue reading “Things I like about myself”
Eating brains
This is where I’m at today. I keep replaying the weekend in my mind. It’s like I’m trying to torment myself. Another day I might have no brains left 🙂 my therapist told me about this mindfulness acronym by Tara brach Rain Recognize what’s going on…. I am fearful of getting into trouble at workContinue reading “Eating brains”
When the mind revolts
As I said yesterday I am reading Eckhart Tolle’s book A New Earth. I am into chapter two and my mind is revolting. The core of me wants to read more and become enlightened. Then there is a part of me that wants to not read it. Not sure which is winning. The fact IContinue reading “When the mind revolts”
Depressed and Angry or Hypomania and Angry?
Starting yesterday I felt a switch in my brain. Depression. I am filled with hatred at the world and everything in it…. including myself. It is confusing as hypo mania shows as anger as well. I am trying to have mindfulness of knowing which side of the pendelum I am on. I do think itContinue reading “Depressed and Angry or Hypomania and Angry?”
I am thirty six
And I am more emotionally fucked up then I was a twenty six or hell even sixteen. Are we suppose to get better with age. Like wine right? I just completely deleted a blog I maintained for over a year as it was going nowhere in helping me improve and I was hoping it would.Continue reading “I am thirty six”
