Im on the mend thankfully. I go back to work tomorrow and not looking forward to it. I often obsess over things I’ve said and done. I try to be the best person i can be. The thing is we are singular in our lives. The world does revolve around us. As we are livingContinue reading “No idea”
I called out today because of the weather. Now I regret it. I hate it when we make a choice that feels right then realize it’s the wrong choice. My tarot card today was the tower which meant chaos. I feel it today. I’m chaotic with regret in my head and the weather won’t beContinue reading “Regrets”
That sums it up. I do this all the time make a choice then regret it. Why in the moment it seems like a good idea? Looks like it’s another klonopine kind of night.
My twenty year class reunion was this weekend. I didn’t go as I didn’t have the money or the self esteem to show up. But looking at the fb photos I regret not going. I haven’t gone to a single one and don’t regret the others but this one is bothering me. Maybe because beforeContinue reading “Reunion regret”
Pdoc kept meds the same. I’m wanting to self harm. I don’t understand these urges but I ask thankful I’m in a house full of people. I had a couple things happen today to emotionally spiral me. I’m traveling with family and the people we are starting with are super uptight. I just want toContinue reading “Pdoc update and life @@trigger alert”