Interacting with people

Since the majority of time the last year has been working with people over the phone and interacting with my coworkers through phone or computer screen i forgot how i react to people that aren’t responsive or their usual self i have seen on a computer in real life. I went to the office today

I woke up this way again

I’ve have slight paranoia about death again. I’m worried someone i love will die and I’ll be shattered. I just realized the doctor upped my Buspar so maybe that will help. Time will tell. Today I’ve only managed to put makeup on for fun as usual putting off what does need done. I plan on

I think

I think if it wasn’t for the meds I’d be manic. I feel paranoid about things i can’t control especially at work. I feel fidgety and tired and wired at the same time. I have two more days at work. Then Christmas break. I’m so ready. I’m actually excited this year for once even though

It’s weird

My anxiety usually is fine on the weekend but this weekend it’s been super high. I think it’s work and money related. It’s paralyzing. I know i have things to do but i just lay in bed instead. I need to change it around because it’s making me paranoid and that’s no head space to

Paranoia

I’m having terrible paranoia in regards to my son going to prom. I have this fear of something devastating happening. I can’t shake it and I know irrational. I just want him to have a great safe time. I can’t wait until midnight when I pick him up.

paranoia

And now I’m paranoid. Ugh. I wish I had a therapist I could call and talk to. Doing it on my own sucks. I’m reaching out to friends and you guys are amazing. It just isn’t the same as no one wants to be a burden. It’s going to be a long weekend I think.

paranoia

I feel ominous today. My anxiety is high thinking something bad is going to happen. There was a blip already this morning but nothing that wasn’t a big deal. I’m obsessed my house is going to catch on fire. It’s a common irrational thought. Yes it could happen but the chances are slim. I have

Realization

I’m sitting here feeling a little paranoid realizing everyone I work with talks about everyone else. Even management… It makes me wonder what they say about me that I don’t know but then the other part of me doesn’t want to know. Ignorance is bliss right? Either way my anxiety is high as tomorrow I

And the depression goes on

I can feel it under the surface. It breaths down my neck and makes me sleepy. It has a bit of paranoia with it. Something I haven’t had in awhile. It sucks more than the depression. Making me second guess everything. I’m not sure what triggered it. I’m doing some soul searching to avoid the

Pride

All day I’ve been paranoid but not as bad as in the old days. More of a feeling like something bad is going to happen or I’ve forgotten something important. It’s not straight anxiety so I’m thinking a little paranoia. I need this meme to stay grounded. I can overcome this. I know it!