Just maybe my life will be ok. Things I’m grateful for in no particular order… My children, my job, food to eat, my parents, my home.
I think I’m depressed. All I want to do is sleep. But thankfully it seems to be mild. I thought my disjointed thoughts in the last post was maybe mania coming but I think more so lack of concentration. I for once don’t like this feeling. Looking back I usually embrace the depression. Like IContinue reading “Depressed”
I’ve got loads of changes happening. The last two days have gone well. After my worry post I started feeling more confident. But I don’t want to be cocky. I get moments of insecurity but I know that’s normal. I’m in a good mood so that’s a plus. This post is choppy I hope I’mContinue reading “Maybe I got this”
I’m full of worries. My grandma is dying. I need to see her this weekend before she goes. I hope she doesn’t go before then. I’ve been very neglectful of her and I feel awful about it. I worry about my son. He shares too much which could cause him to be bullied. I don’tContinue reading “Worries”
Today has been a better day. It’s just change and new and of course I want to be perfect. Oh and drug test went fine but still leery they will use it against me one day. I hope I’m worrying for nothing. They didn’t ask why or anything. So that’s good.
I’m feeling very insecure about my decision. I hope it’s just the newness and not knowing everything. I just don’t know.
My sleep tonight has been restless. I know my mind is distracted by the unknown. Plus I had an allergic reaction to some makeup I put on. I’m not sure I mentioned that but I go in tomorrow with a red botch face. Great! I wanted to put makeup on and start it as selfContinue reading “Sleep”
I could use some prayers or positive energy of comfort. Change is scary for anyone but those of us work mental illness it’s harder. I am fearful I won’t have insurance that I can afford for my children like I thought. I’m praying I read the application wrong. So It’s added to my worries IContinue reading “Never too late”
Two days left before I’m free… Two nights left until I’m off call. I can’t wait. Time is going at a regular pace yet still slow. My mood is awesome. What a wonderful feeling. I wish I could bottle it for those lonely days to drink as an elixir.
I have a lot to get done these next four days but I keep getting annoyed at people’s work ethic. I told myself that saying not my monkeys not my circus… Is that the saying? Lol I need to focus on me and let the rest go to the wayside.