Life isn’t what it use to be yet it’s not a bad thing. I often want my old life but it was full of chaos sometimes that i don’t have now. I definitely need to find joy in the now. This is my life and i only get one.
Brene brown speaks eloquently of being vulnerable. Today I’ve decided to go there. I have talked many times of lifestyle changes on here only to not have them last. It’s embarrassing. I am unhappy in my weight to the point it makes me paranoid of what people are saying about me. I’m addicted to food.Continue reading “Being vulnerable”
It went awesome he doesn’t have to be seen for two years now. Whoop whoop. Also the trip with his father and girlfriend went well. Overall a success. Thank you as always for your prayers and positivity.
I’m in a really good space right now and I’m enjoying it. Here is a couple of photos i took today on my second favorite holiday. Since i didn’t work today i decided to do something fun makeup wise. Fourth day getting into my passion and i am thankful for that. Hope all is wellContinue reading “Happy fourth of July”
We go for my middle son’s MRI and cancer check. We have to travel three hours away so positive vibes and prayers for safe travels and more importantly that my son’s cancer hasn’t grown. I’m foolishly going with my ex and his girlfriend in the same car. My parents think it’s a bad idea andContinue reading “Tomorrow”
I actually got up early and exercised and put makeup on. I’m not even that tired so go me. I plan on making it a habit. Now for the incompetent part… this job had a way of making me feel incompetent. It always hits me all at once. And yet a part of me doesn’tContinue reading “I did this thing and on feeling incompetent”
I only work tomorrow. Then i have six days off whoop whoop. But in that time i worry about my son’s cancer check up how his father and i will get along and if he’ll need another surgery. I’m also worried about money. The lack there of and how i like to spend regardless. Lastly,Continue reading “Worries”
I’m having a hypo manic phase. I have a lot of the red flags. Thinking I’m psychic… inflated ego… wanting to stay hobbies. I like it and I’m going to openly minded enjoy it. I realize it’s a mental health state that isn’t reality but hell why not enjoy it. As long as I’m doingContinue reading “I think”
I have been depressed the last two days. It really sucks as I have had so many great days recently. It just reminds me how much this illness take away from your life. You get a taste of happiness then it goes *poof* It just reminds me how people say to choose happiness. I wishContinue reading “When Depression Creeps In”
I will not let my ex husband get to me. He decided after months of not seeing the boys to take them over night. Apparently he complained about how dirty my house is. Yes it’s not perfect but I’ve seen worse. I try to play nice letting him in. I should have known better. BeingContinue reading “I will not”