What is it about me that i become obsessed with people? I keep having dreams about people that probably don’t think of me. It’s so frustrating they are still on my mind. I’ll see a post of someone on social media and think of times we shared life moments and wonder if it had theContinue reading “What is it”
I may not know you personally but you have value and are loved. It may be hard to believe but i promise it’s true.
I struggle sometimes moment to moment. It’s exhausting being in my head even on my good days. Which thankfully have been more often then not. Still i overthink and procrastinate. It’s what I’m good at. Still in this moment i can say and be grateful I’m better then three years ago hell three months ago.Continue reading “Just try”
The interview went really well. I hope to know in the next two weeks. Fingers crossed. Other than that i still feel a little mixed. It’s manageable though so that’s a plus. I’m trying to accept things for what they are. I do think some things are worth fighting for but you have to chooseContinue reading “Thank you”
I feel manic and depressed and very anxious. I just want this day over. I have so much on my mind. I feel it’s all crumbling. Praying the serenity prayer for sure.
I think I’m manic. I just spent a lot of money and i don’t care other then to journal here. I honestly kept trying to talk myself out of it with no luck. I think I’m done now though. Plus i ran out of money to pay bills. I feel numb to it. I wasContinue reading “Oh shit”
I’m purging my room it’s made a bigger mess than i would like but still a good thing. I’m not manic just motivated. I am losing momentum though … figures. Is that a bipolar thing or just me?
I woke up with work anxiety. It was even in my dreams. I also dreamt of this diet I’m on. I feel inadequate and worrisome. It was so refreshing when i felt like i didn’t have a mental illness but i do and these things creep in way too often. I’m not sure keto isContinue reading “Ugh anxiety”
I struggle with loving myself. Today i do but often especially when I’m in the grips of bipolar… i don’t. Today here’s my list of things i live about myself My eyes My desire to self improve My compassion My always wanting to do my best My laugh My ability to love others What isContinue reading “Self love”
Today is a decent day so far. I have a little anxiety but it’s manageable. Work is ok. No real drama so that’s nice. But i try not to have expectations. I can’t say enough how happy i am to not be depressed. As i am right now i am proud of me. I’ve mentallyContinue reading “Just some thoughts”