I think if it wasn’t for the meds I’d be manic. I feel paranoid about things i can’t control especially at work. I feel fidgety and tired and wired at the same time. I have two more days at work. Then Christmas break. I’m so ready. I’m actually excited this year for once even thoughContinue reading “I think”
I have a long day ahead of me. I don’t have anyone to call today and no one had people to give up. I’m trying to stay busy but it’s hard. I feel… well I’m not sure. I think even keeled. I’m not anxious or depressed and i don’t feel manic like yesterday. I’m soContinue reading “Long day”
I think im manic but thanks to medication it’s a dulled manic. I feel like I’m crawling out of my skin and I’m paranoid. I want sex and to shave my head. Thankfully the meds dull it to where they are just thoughts.
Im in a really good mood. I wonder if im becoming manic. It’s kinda sad when you have to question a good mood but that’s my life. I suppose to be fair there is a restlessness to it that makes me wonder more than just being happy feeling. It sure does beat that depressed feelingContinue reading “Life goes on”
I feel manic and depressed and very anxious. I just want this day over. I have so much on my mind. I feel it’s all crumbling. Praying the serenity prayer for sure.
I’m having a hypo manic phase. I have a lot of the red flags. Thinking I’m psychic… inflated ego… wanting to stay hobbies. I like it and I’m going to openly minded enjoy it. I realize it’s a mental health state that isn’t reality but hell why not enjoy it. As long as I’m doingContinue reading “I think”
Or in a mixed state. I don’t feel hyper sexual but I did binge easy last night something I realize I haven’t done in awhile. I spent some money and had problems falling asleep. I’m consumed with worry. I don’t feel suicidal though so that’s a plus. I just don’t know what to do withContinue reading “I think I’m manic”
This song is everything right now. I’m crawling out of my skin wanting to do bad things. I want to go to a bar and have sex. I want to spend money and go to a strip club. I’m fighting it but the urge is there. I love this feeling. But the rational me isContinue reading “Feeling manic”
I miss being manic. I’m always more productive and nice. I also have the energy to dream. Now my dreams are just getting through the day.