Yesterday I felt so confident. Today it is all gone. My mind is swirling with self doubt. I don’t want to be here. My stomach is in knots and I’m obsessing over everything. Lord help me.
I have a tarot cards app on my phone. I go through stages where playing them scares me and/or paranoid. But yesterday I dabbled again and it revealed some interesting things. Now I think it’s all interpretation. I have opened up a bible and turned to the perfect verse for how I was feeling. IsContinue reading “Tarot cards”
I wish I could follow this meme advice. It speaks a lot of truth. Why do we let people hurt us. Why do we hurt people? Again onto the topic of human nature. Are we all so flawed we can’t help it. Do the happy people fight too? Do they have insecurities? Do unfortunate thingsContinue reading
Enough said 🙂
I didn’t realize how unhappy I am until yesterday. I had wishes for misery on another person. Not really wishes I guess but more that I wasn’t alone in mine. She was talking about her life and unhappiness and I liked it. I feel so ashamed but it’s the truth. So I am doubly unhappyContinue reading “Misery loves company”
This sums up life in general. I was sick today I think just a head cold I slept a lot and feel refreshed. This meme holds everything I want our of life but I think this illness stops at least half of these things. Someone dear to me asked what I want out of lifeContinue reading “Life is short”
I couldn’t say it better myself.
And I brought it in myself with poor choices. Trying to keep with my new dbt skills and not judge but it is hard when the choices were bad. Plus husband not working so financial stain doesn’t help. I just want to sleep the next two week away. Klonopone is my only friend right now.Continue reading “High anxiety”
This is often what anxiety feels like to me. Life blurring and whirling around me. I can’t make it stop. The klonopone calls it or masks it but it’s still laying there in my mind. I had a birthday yesterday. I’m 38. I’ve decided this year is about calm finding in these blurred swirling mindContinue reading “Blurred life”
Tomorrow I transfer to a supposedly known to be less job in the county over from mine. It has mostly perks but I’ve draw back… the drive home. I will like the drive there. I already know this as I’ve had a similar drive before. Today has become very boring due to all this andContinue reading “Bored”