I have a headache that won’t go away. I’m sure it’s from stress. I am back to really disliking my job. I do look and it’s slim pickings where i live especially since it’s a resort town and is the off season. I feel on the brink of a depression. I hope I’m wrong. IContinue reading “Headache”
I read a blog that mentioned joy and being scared to enjoy it. I’m paraphrasing as that’s what i gathered from it. I can’t find the post or I’d link it. Anyway… i agree I’m too worried about having it in my life i lose out on it. I can name a handful of timesContinue reading “Memory”
Life isn’t what it use to be yet it’s not a bad thing. I often want my old life but it was full of chaos sometimes that i don’t have now. I definitely need to find joy in the now. This is my life and i only get one.
This saying above really hit home for me. I have this picture of an awesome life in my head and I fail at executing it. I realized right now I’m ok with it. No one has the perfect life so why should I? I’m going to do my best to find joy in the lifeContinue reading “Find joy”
I had a good therapy session. I told him I wanted to find joy in life. He asked if I can feel any emotions due to my meds. I said not really. Occasionally I have felt rage or serene. He said I need to fake it to make it. When I have an inkling ofContinue reading “staying positive”
I’m working hard at staying positive and finding joy in my life. I also keep trying to log my food intake but keep failing. I just can’t get it together. My anxiety has been high. I think it’s my job. Anyway not much to update about but wanted to let you all know I’m stillContinue reading “joy and anxiety”
I think I take my life for granted. I’m having an existential crisis I think. I’ve been racking my brain trying to think what I can do differently. Really I think I just need to enjoy it more. Have less pity parties and more self kindness. This is a good goal I think.
I’m feeling good this morning. Yesterday flew by so I didn’t get a chance to post anything. It was just a regular day. No drama really. I did dye my hair. Here is before and after. Very different colors lol I’m going to get it cut today and treat myself to some sunglasses. It’s beautifulContinue reading “feeling good”
I finally got to watch Disney pixar inside out movie. It was cute but disappointing. I was hoping for some great insight and alas it was just a kids movie. If anything I’m triggered as my joy emotion is broke and the movie pointed it out for me. Silly women I know letting a movieContinue reading “Inside out”
I feel in a rut. The only thing I look forward to is sleep. I’m not even excited for the holidays. Maybe because money is tight. But Christmas use to be my favorite holiday and I feel joyless. I had to skip therapy this week for a work thing. I like my therapist as heContinue reading “Today’s emotion… Meh”