I realize a moment ago I might be going hypomanic. I have this urge to cut off all my hair and get kittens. The crux of it all is how do I tell if this is just normal silliness or actual mental illness? I also feel slightly agitated and of course love myself. All tellingContinue reading “Feeling a little manic”
All good songs and remind me of when I was younger and unmedicated.
I spent money I didn’t have yesterday on a service I didn’t need. Therefore I can’t do the walk of shame return thing. That’s the worst part of my hypo mania… impulse buying. It always sounds good in the moment but past that it’s just guilt and regret. I need to follow this screenshot fromContinue reading “When hypo mania goes awry”
I can really tell I am in a weird disjointed hypo mania state. All day I have been funny and energetic and hyper sexual. Then I realized it was not due to my awesome personality but a switch in my brain. I still feel those ways but with an undercurrent of dread and sadness thatContinue reading
Starting yesterday I felt a switch in my brain. Depression. I am filled with hatred at the world and everything in it…. including myself. It is confusing as hypo mania shows as anger as well. I am trying to have mindfulness of knowing which side of the pendelum I am on. I do think itContinue reading “Depressed and Angry or Hypomania and Angry?”
My husband tells me tonight that when we went to Florida for our son’s Dream Factory wish that he considered us separated. WHAAA??? Now I know we were six weeks from being there as he was in love with some High School Fantasy girl that was just an unhappy married women who lead my husbandContinue reading “What The Hell — When two people have two different Realities”
So I left off the other day talking about how I am on the brink of a nervous breakdown. I talked with my psychiatrist and made him get me some kind of help. It is amazing how at first it was like they didn’t want to do anything for me. His nurse told me toContinue reading “I have Bi Polar II”