Stuck

I’m stuck in fear mode. I feel incomplete and incompetent. I fear getting clients at my job and officially doing the job. I fear I’ll never find a place to be me. I fear for my future and if i can stick it out these next four years as my youngest grows up. Letting fear

Depression

Hello to who ever reads this. I am fully depressed. I want to quit my job as i don’t feel I’m good enough for it and i haven’t even really started it. I have a lot of negative self talk and i just want to sleep. It hasn’t been this bad in a long while.

Fear

I want to join an online healthy lifestyle group. It costs money but is reasonable and has a menu and a different workout every day. Plus a support group. Im scared to fail again and waste money on it. I know this is fatalist thinking and will cause me to fail. Something has to give

Give up

I’m having a heavy negative self talk day already. It’s amazing how the mind can dredge up things from twenty years ago and make me feel bad about myself. I doubt myself a lot. Every decision has to be dissected and then I’ll probably make the wrong one. I really do try and have faith

fearless

I use to be fearless in my endeavors. Now I shrink at the fear of actually having to follow through. I would love to be a Ted x speaker. They come to Kansas city in August and are taking submissions to do a short topic. I have one in mind but then I think what

#loveme day fourteen

I’d say racism. I was taught not to trust or be friends with African Americans. My parents went so far as to take me out of the city to be raised on a farm. I remember the first time an African American talked to me I was scared. I had to teach myself that bigotry

Fears

I’m currently afraid to look at my bank account. I was impulsive this weekend and spent money on things I didn’t need instead of paying bills. I’m fearful of having a stroke. I’d rather have cancer or a heart attack for some reason. I think it’s that part of your brain has died and you

May 2014 — Mental Health Awareness month

MHM 2014 – Mind Your Health Poster Calendar   Grrrr I wanted the link above to be a picture within the post. It won’t but if you click on the link it will bring up a calendar created by Mental Health America Today we are to pick out a class to take. Well where I