I sit here realizing im wallowing in nothingness. Maybe i have set my expectations on things to just miraculously happen on there own. I make the same decisions that lead to poor choices over and over again. I know that only i can make the changes. Yet im stagnant. Im unsure of myself and thoughContinue reading “Wallowing”
I’m bored today. Doing everything but what I need to do. One thing is being on Facebook. That thing is a time suck but I love it and hate it. I need to stop putting people on there who show their fabulous positive life. It triggers me to feel like a failure and to beContinue reading “Bored and envy”
Work was alright. I needed an additional eight hours but don’t want to actually work it. My depression is better but still underlying there. I think it’s because I’m angry with where my life is right now. I’m envious of others. It’s a bad way to live life. I don’t know how to stop it.
OMG I have already acted a fool into the New Year, Why is it the older we get the more we sober up and become embarrassed by our fragmented memories of the night? I am not sure it is made better by it being sadly just my parents and children. I think I am botheredContinue reading “Happy New Year!”