I was looking at drafts on my blog and found this snippet from ten months ago. Other than the last two days, and making a new friend. I feel not much bright spots in life. I’m so sensitive and paranoid about everything people do or say. I’m back to pre mood stabilizer I think. ThenContinue reading “Turn back Tuesday: Fighting sensitivity.”
Yesterday I felt so confident. Today it is all gone. My mind is swirling with self doubt. I don’t want to be here. My stomach is in knots and I’m obsessing over everything. Lord help me.
Today I’m not doing so good. I got up early to put makeup on but that didn’t happen. I wanted to stay home and eat all day. Instead I am going about my usual business. High anxiety with a little bit of paranoia. I hate the paranoia. It takes constant self talk to rationalize it.Continue reading “Feeling emotional”
I realized this morning I’m letting negativity drag me down. I’m so ready for the weekend and being able to sleep in. I’m not sure how to think positive I’m so in a negative funk. I want to though. I’m going to try some dbt tips I learned from a book. Cuz this is suckingContinue reading “Sucking negativity”
I really like this quote. I wish people would be more forgiving kind and non judgmental to people with a mental illness. No one asks for it that’s for Damn sure. Recently in one of my fb support groups a question was asked if you had one wish what would it be. Years ago itContinue reading “Illness versus wellness”
I’m feeling very unloveable right now. The high feelings I was on have come crashing down. That was a nice two days. Will I ever feel loveable? Sniff sniff
Yep I think I’ve been triggered into hypo mania. I don’t usually post but once a day but this is my third one. I don’t know what to do with myself. I am having obsessive thoughts on things that will probably never be reality. Fixated on people/things and feeling irrational. I gotta say I likeContinue reading “Hypo manic”
I didn’t realize how unhappy I am until yesterday. I had wishes for misery on another person. Not really wishes I guess but more that I wasn’t alone in mine. She was talking about her life and unhappiness and I liked it. I feel so ashamed but it’s the truth. So I am doubly unhappyContinue reading “Misery loves company”