Every little thing i do i second guess myself. I feel incompetent. I made a decision that was not life or death with a client but I’m thinking somehow this decision will get me in trouble. It’s just hard sometimes to build rapport without giving a little of yourself as well. And since I’m notContinue reading “Today is not a good mental health day”
I agreed with those that said to look at my posts to how unhappy i am. And the other supportive comments… I think it was good feedback with that said I’m staying at my current job. I just don’t think I’d be any happier in the other position. It would be working with boys whoContinue reading “What was decided”
My son broke up with his girlfriend today. I worry about him as he has suicidal ideation that can turn to more I’m scared. We make choices and they suck and are hard but he had a list of things wrong in the relationship that was extensive. He says he feels dead inside. I knowContinue reading “Life is hard”
I use to be very angry and bitter that i have a mental illness. Now i have the occasional pity party but over all I’ve grieved and accepted it. I say that on a good day but i think it rings true. I do think some things are left to fate but the majority isContinue reading “Choice”
Karma is a bitch. I try to live by the golden rule. Yet sometimes we shit on someone we didn’t mean to. I can’t think of a time i did it on purpose but I’m sure there had been. I use to do such devilish things. I’m sitting here having flashes of my past andContinue reading “Be the shit”
I start back tomorrow to my old job that was so stressful but I have the hindsight to appreciate it. I just pray I’m in a better headspace to handle the chaos. I need the stability and benefits it gave me. I must say I feel good in my choice to come back. No waffling.Continue reading “Dear self in 2019”
I did a guest spot on young and twenty. Check out the link to what I wrote if you don’t mind. It’s uplifting 🙂 I promise.
I don’t necessarily feel bipolar is an illness. I like the term disorder better. Anyway the feel of this meme is felt. No one choices this. I didn’t choose to be different and chemically unbalanced. I didn’t choose to be over sensitive and hold things from ten years ago against myself. Or lose myself inContinue reading “Choices not chosen”
That sums it up. I do this all the time make a choice then regret it. Why in the moment it seems like a good idea? Looks like it’s another klonopine kind of night.
I didn’t realize how unhappy I am until yesterday. I had wishes for misery on another person. Not really wishes I guess but more that I wasn’t alone in mine. She was talking about her life and unhappiness and I liked it. I feel so ashamed but it’s the truth. So I am doubly unhappyContinue reading “Misery loves company”