Got home two hours ago and ate some pizza then fell asleep. Woke up for a quick phone call to boyfriend to talk to him. He seemed aloof and cut the call short. I let him as cut it short as i don’t have the emotional where with all to find out why. So insteadContinue reading “Good night all”
We have had a mixed bag day. Got to mri on time but they were running am hour late… got to drs office in time with awesome results tumor has shrunk BUT they found something else on his mri in his neck area so… waiting on a ears neck throat doctor to look at theContinue reading “Current update”
I slept for total crap last night. It was to be expected. Today has so many variables. I feel in my heart it will be fine but this time its my mind saying what if this what if that. I am in awe of my son for all his issues and our conflicts he remainsContinue reading “I’m up too early”
I had a busy day at work which was good because it meant that it went fast and i didn’t have time to think about my sons mri tomorrow. Then when i had one more person to reach out to that used specific computer forms along with case notes to write boom the system crashes.Continue reading “Omg really?!”
It went awesome he doesn’t have to be seen for two years now. Whoop whoop. Also the trip with his father and girlfriend went well. Overall a success. Thank you as always for your prayers and positivity.
For those that follow my son’s story his tumor is about one centimeter big. It didn’t grow and we don’t have to go back for another MRI for a year. We’ve been doing them every six months about for the last three or four years son this is awesome news. Also the Dr said nextContinue reading “Great news”
My uncle died at 7:55 this morning. Thank you for your support. I know he’s no longer suffering. This event has triggered depression in me. I think mainly because I can’t cry very well and the whole death is so final thing. I don’t want to make it about me but well it is myContinue reading “Depression”
My uncle is dying. He has had cancer for years and is finally succumbing to it. I’m not close to him but my dad and grandma are so I see their sadness and it hurts. Besides the fact to watch someone die is a long tortuous act. Most of the time I feel immortal. IContinue reading “Immortality and death”
In a half hour I staff with my supervisor. I’ll let you know my mood afterwards. Right now is slight anxiety helped by klonopine. It’s funny how just a half hour can change everything. Hell even a minute. One choice can make all the difference. I remember the day my son was diagnosed with cancerContinue reading “Half hour”
I feel good. It’s awesome. Accepting I have bipolar and it’s not going to change has put me in a good place. I’m being kind to myself and letting the negative thoughts come but then letting them go without judgement. For right now I got this and it feels great.