Dare i say i feel stable? It’s a little intimidating to put it into a written thought. I know i should be formulating habits now to sustain me when I’m not so stable. It’s a work in progress. Stable to me is not wanting to die… feeling joy again… and seeing positive in things. OhContinue reading “What being stable means to me”
Tag Archives: anxiety
Positivity to the rescue
Welp… my car only cost me 140.00 as it started for them at the garage. I decided to have them take out the auto starter as it has given me issues for years. I’m happy i stayed positive and like the feeling. I am also trying to be realistic and know it can’t always beContinue reading “Positivity to the rescue”
Randomness pure and simple
I think i might have forgotten to tell you my car broke down this weekend. Though i am not thankful for the money to put into the heap i am thankful it worked Friday when i went to clients houses. I’m thankful i signed up for triple aaa just in time to forgo the costContinue reading “Randomness pure and simple”
I get caught up
These two pictures say a lot. I’ve often went on about how others have a better life then me but do they really? I’ve created the negativity and drama of wanting a different life that i will never get. I know i have to live through mental health issues and right now for the mostContinue reading “I get caught up”
Hi there
It’s been a day without blogging. So i thought I’d come on here and chat a little. I feel stable which is a mix of happy and blah. I am plugging along and trying to stay positive. I got my second dose of the covid vaccine and i feel ok health wise. No fever orContinue reading “Hi there”
What was decided
I agreed with those that said to look at my posts to how unhappy i am. And the other supportive comments… I think it was good feedback with that said I’m staying at my current job. I just don’t think I’d be any happier in the other position. It would be working with boys whoContinue reading “What was decided”
What to do…
I got the other job but i went to put in my two weeks notice and my boss asked me to reconsider. She says i do a great job and should stick it out. Frankly i don’t know if i can afford the pay cut at the other place. I told her I’d think aboutContinue reading “What to do…”
It’s all relative
I don’t know what i feel. I’m ok i guess. Got through the day now just relaxing. I feel like i want to sleep my life away yet am looking forward to the future. I think we need to give all of us grace. Life is hard and with mental health issues it just getsContinue reading “It’s all relative”
What if
I woke up one day and actually did all the things i wanted to do like exercise and eat healthy… journal and cleaned my house. What a miracle that’d be. In a perfect world right? I do good with what i have though… i need to give myself some credit. I go to work …Continue reading “What if”
Paralyzed
I feel paralyzed in fear of my brain. I don’t get anything done and i haven’t taken a shower in several days. I know if it wasn’t for the meds I’d be in full depression mode. It’s weird though i feel split in two… perfectly fine and blatantly miserable. If i thought 2021 was goingContinue reading “Paralyzed”
