Every day

I know I’ve been talking about change a lot. It’s the new year so I’m heavy on resolutions. I completed my first love letter to myself yesterday. The calendar I’m using started this week so i took advantage. I called and left a message for a job i really want. Decided to be proactive and

Headache

I have a headache that won’t go away. I’m sure it’s from stress. I am back to really disliking my job. I do look and it’s slim pickings where i live especially since it’s a resort town and is the off season. I feel on the brink of a depression. I hope I’m wrong. I

I woke up this way

I woke up with negative thoughts running through my head. It’s paralyzing. And hurtful to my psyche. I’m letting every thought linger and i think manifesting ideas that aren’t even reality. How can i set routines and make change when i don’t know who I’ll be when i wake up?

A nothing kind of day

Thank goodness i have another day off. I did nothing today of importance which was ok yet i still feel a little guilty. How do i make changes if i don’t DO anything? I did manage to decorate my planners. And pick my words off the year. Now to use it. Is it 21 or

Merry Christmas

What did you all get? I got a sprocket which is a mini photo printer. It’s going to go with my love letters this year. I bought myself a new purse and boots. My oldest got me a Starbucks gift card but he said he lost it somewhere. 😒 is the thought though for real.

Christmas eve 2020

I’m restless. I could clean but that’s no fun 😕 after all is Christmas eve. I do wish i had friends to go visit but then again it’s 2020 so who can visit anyway. I guess I’ll figure out something to do. I’m trying to be thankful as restless is better than depressed right? Here

Chugging along

I feel like the little train that could… i think i can i think i can. I’m chugging along. Today I’m having negative self talk. It’s the i live in filth i am filth. Even though I’ve put in a load of laundry and my boys are doing the dishes. I know it’s because my

I think

I think if it wasn’t for the meds I’d be manic. I feel paranoid about things i can’t control especially at work. I feel fidgety and tired and wired at the same time. I have two more days at work. Then Christmas break. I’m so ready. I’m actually excited this year for once even though

Hmmm why an issue

I’m hoping this lack of caring about showering is more a…. i am home all the time so it’s not a thought of who smells me… line of thinking then depression. I of course need a shower but didn’t take one yesterday but i did Friday so i guess maybe I’m making it an issue

Per usual

I don’t tend to blog as much when things are going good.  I think that’s not fair to people that follow me on a regular basis.  I say this because you are all so supportive when I’m in a bad spot both you and i deserve to be supportive with the good stuff too. I