#blogtober20 girls just want to have fun

Another difficult prompt. Sigh… i feel like I’m no fun. With covid i don’t do anything or make plans. Life is just one shit fest day after another. Can you tell i got a bad attitude? I’ve got a half hour until my drs appt and I’m in a fowl mood. I just hope i

#blogtober20 i should be so lucky …tw suicide

Tomorrow i have no clients on my calendar to see… my boss is off… and I’ll have to beg for someone to give me someone to call. I should be so lucky as to have a job at all. I know lots of people want jobs but can’t get hired for whatever reason. I just

#blogtober20 relax

I spent today relaxing and fighting off negative thoughts. When you wake up to them you know it’s going to be a long day and it’s best to avoid it. So i relaxed and slept and listen to music and watched TV. It helped take away the thoughts. I can’t figure out why I’m struggling

#blogtober20 imagine

Imagine a world were there was no mental illnesses. A world there was no pandemic going on. A world where there wasn’t a need for black lives matter movement. People loved and though there may be hard times they were painless. A world were we take care of the planet. Just imagine how awesome that

Yes third time posting today

I don’t talk about my boyfriend a lot on here because well in general we get along… it’s not toxic and other then him being an hour and half away with his own life to live we don’t spend much time together. There isn’t much to say. Due to covid and him being high risk

Struggling

Today has been rough in my head. I checked with my insurance about latuda after my deductible is covered it would only be fifty dollars. That’s not bad. I left a voice-mail for the doctor. I talk to her Monday but thought I’d put a bug in her ear. Fingers crossed. I’m so beyond tired

#blogtober20 millennium

Another prompt I’m not sure what to do with. Other then I’ve spent a millennium trying to figure myself out lol I am wondering if i should ask my psych dr for latuda. Does anyone have experience with that medicine? I can’t shake the sad cobwebs from my mind. So i wondered if a boost

#blogtober20: if i could turn back time

Before last week i would have easily wanted to turn back time. With the realization of how chaotic and toxic i most likely was… i can safely say i wouldn’t turn back time. I know that my life is up and down right now but I’m far from being how i was. If i had

Hugs wanted

And just like that my not knowing how i feel turns into sadness with a splash of depression. I’d be crying if i could. I feel it in my chest and behind my eyes. I need a hug.

#blogtober20 she drives me crazy

That is the prompt for today. I’m not sure i like it. It’s seems stigmatizing as is from a non mental health blog. But maybe I’m being too sensitive. So other then that snippet I’m going on about my business 🤔 lol it looks like WordPress changed layouts slightly again. So far it doesn’t bother