I forgot my meds which usually isn’t an issue but today I could really use them. I’m super anxious and sensitive. I’m not sure what it stems from thigh I have some ideas. I think it’s work related. I just want this day over at this point.
I must be hypo manic as I feel psychic again. I feel to my core something bad is going to happen today. I can’t shake it off. Please pray for me.
I had a twinge today to cut my wrists. When I get this feeling I’m trying to re teach my brain to focus on the why. It has to do with my current family situation and the anxiety of it all. I’m not going to do it but for a couple minutes I wanted too.Continue reading “Suicidal thoughts”
I was driving my son to work today and I had a memory of when I was a teenager and went to church camp. I have had suicidal tendencies since I was fourteen years old. When I was seventeen I finally told my school counselor as I felt homicidal and it scared me. My parentsContinue reading “It’s story time”
Oh just sitting here waiting on the pdoc. She had a sick child she had to take home so behind on appts. At least the waiting room isn’t crowded. Still waiting is a trigger for me. I hope she decreases my lamictal again. I had a dream I cried and I was so happy byContinue reading “Waiting”
I’m anxious today. I have a lot of driving to do and yesterday I went to a tourist trap and almost ran over people. I keep replaying the concept in my mind. I can’t let it go. Plus thinking of work occasionally too. It’s not helping my mood. This is even my second favorite holiday.Continue reading “The what if game”
I couldn’t sum it up better 🙂 Been having a lot of anxiety but trying to cope today I used mindfulness. It’s a hard habit to make but I’m trying. Mine has mainly been from money issues and work. How do you deal with anxiety?
I’m sitting here waiting for my son to get his tooth filled. Not sure if it’s the wasted time and anger kind of anxiety or sitting in a room full of strangers and feeling alone anxiety. I know it’s a dash of passing the bill as I don’t get paid until the thirtieth and IContinue reading “Waiting causes me anxiety”
I started with a new therapist yesterday. I already don’t like him. I think mostly because I want him to cure me and there is no cure. He said he’d work dbt skills with me. And he made me realize the people that make comments about me being different on meds don’t understand how myContinue reading “Therapy”