I swear today was a shit show. My toxic ex yelled at me… this was after he came to my house being exposed to covid and talked close to the children. I told him to fucking stop yelling at me. This is huge as im usually very pleasing toward him. Yet i let him makeContinue reading “Fucking drama”
I’m sitting here wanting to cry. I feel so low. I just want to have a life without the roller coaster moods. This feeling is so soulfully painful. I’m going to go distract myself maybe that will help.
Today i was reminded why we have to let go of toxic people. I know my ex got a reminder today of why we divorced and i did too. We don’t talk often but it’s our middle son’s graduation this Saturday so we’ve had reason to. I know playing the conversation back he’s thinking stillContinue reading “Past”
Im beyond irritated at fed ex they have horrible customer service and waiting around to hear the door knock sucks. Just saying…. This is what I’m up to today. Getting my little late due to covid iron infusion. Life is easy breezy on my staycation despite getting angry at the delivery guy now i haveContinue reading “Today 7920”
This was my fortune today. I’m praying and hoping it’s true. I do think some happiness is up to me. Learning to make better choices and coping mechanisms will help with my happiness level. I also know i can’t sustain it twenty four seven and i have to be okay with the moments im inContinue reading “Im hoping”
Im excited for my new job. I think im getting out while the getting is good at my current job. The state is having major budget cuts and with this job i already started with a fifty cent raise. Im just hoping the insurance is good. Im on a already planned vacation this week thenContinue reading “Excited”
I had another vivid dream of the man i think is my soul mate but circumstances it didn’t work out… i know i know here probably isn’t my soul mate though… anyway why do i keep dreaming of him? I hope he does miss me but who knows.
This was my tarot card of the day. I don’t always look at them but glad i did today. It is time for me to move on. I am at peace with my decision and it’s refreshing. I have a weeks vacation then three days of things to do then a four day weekend beforeContinue reading “The world”
I say im sorry a lot. I carry a lot of guilt. It’s something engrained in me. I will have random thoughts of stupid things I’ve said or done play through my head. I don’t need to apologize for everything. I don’t need a life of constant dislike of my choices. Boundaries are good thingsContinue reading “Apologies”
My day was a bust but in a good way. I am on the countdown from my old job. Thankfully i have vacation starting Friday. Just two days to get things done but i don’t have much to do so it makes for a long day. My mood overall is good. I feel some guiltContinue reading “Lay your head down”