Drama

There was drama at home last night between my live in and my son. Then I come to work and there is drama about me possibly leaving. I think they chop it up to bipolar bs. But I need to make changes in my life. Starting with my career if possible. You guys are the

depression

Though I am thankful I woke up this morning to see another day, I woke up depressed. I’m sure it’s work related. I like how I’m more intuned to my feelings. I decided instead of trying to fix it. I’m just going to ride the wave. It’s mild with no suicidal thoughts so I’m going

This is me

I am all these things in one and possibly all in the same day lol though I don’t love my complexity… I’m learning to accept it. At least I feel that way today 🙂

Acceptance

I know I struggle with this. I want everyone to like me and find my work or parenting acceptable. I need to work on just being happy to be me. Maybe that would help with my stress level. Something to explore in therapy I think 🙂

Good enough

Another thing my therapist touched on during my last session was my want to be perfect. He noticed a pattern where I won’t try new things or take the time to clean the house because I can’t make it perfect. He told me being or doing “good enough” is ok. At least I’m doing something

Today I accept

Today I’m working on self acceptance. It’s going ok. I accept I’m overweight because of the food choices I make. And I accept I have a mental disorder that will be with me for life. I accept I say stupid things and regret them later. I accept I will never be perfect. It’s all ok

#loveme day twenty seven

Ohhh this is a good one. I’ve accepted that I don’t think like the majority of people and I never will. It doesn’t mean I don’t long for it when I’m at my worst but in general I accept it.

This is it right here

I yearn for this place. But does it even exist? I know it’s not where I currently live that’s why I need a change of scenery. When I was in Australia I felt peace… At home… If only I knew now what my life would become oh the things I’d do differently. I of course

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Resourceful MEME’s

First off I am so over joyed I am taking this quick little vacation. The Cher/Cyndi Lauper concert was beyond my expectations. Both are incredible women and both for different reasons. I didn’t get any pictures of cher because my phone got zapped of juice for some reason. But here is the best I took