Some moments i feel i have life down other times im floundering. Right now i feel i got this but i also know im procrastinating. Im going to sit in this moment and enjoy the false sense of security. I know a lot of us are struggling and though i wish i was alone in it… it’s sadly comforting. I want you all to take care you are appreciated by me!
My mind is trying to make something bother me more than it does. It’s giving me a headache. I keep thinking about it but can’t get too worked up like i think i should be. Ugh. Deep breaths and let it go
I’ve been in a good mood the last few days. Fairly productive for me. We had my son’s graduation party. It was small but he enjoyed himself. On a side note… His girlfriend broke up with him but he’s taken it well thankfully.
I have a psych dr appt tomorrow. We shall see how that goes.
I must be feeling something down deep as I’ve been wanting to eat all day. Im just not sure what is causing it. It might be some weird dreams I have been having.
I know this is disjointed post but i wanted to post my update as i know when i haven’t read from a person in awhile i wonder.
I’ve crashed into the idgf mode. My dreams keep haunting me with the past and i have no motivation.
I see the psych dr Monday. But i don’t think meds will change things. Im faithful in them and though they help the bipolar… it is still a part of me. I just want someone to see the struggle and say… hey you’re doing a great job at being you despite life. Keep it up.
My joy from earlier has been replaced with swirling thoughts of doubt and regret. How is it that a few hours change your feelings?
Yikes my weekend got out of hand work wise but i managed it. Now to work two weeks without on call then another week then two weeks and im taking a week off. I need it.
I react to things wrong sometimes that’s what anxiety does. It’s not easy to change an attitude just because. I try to be fair and honest in everything. I’ve come a long way and today im proud of that.
Right at this moment im in good spirits which is a nice change. Im enjoying it so there is that.
I am pretty sure I’m depressed. I just lay in bed with thoughts swirling. Im not interested in anything and i can’t seem to either care enough or too much. I wish i had something poignant to say but i don’t.
Indeed. Com said this job i would like looked at my resume. Please send positivity and prayers i get a chance to interview.
I am holding steady. I’m just at a space i have no fucks to give. I wish i had something cheery and hopeful to share. Alas i don’t. So much turmoil in the us and work is a disaster. I have too many feelings im numb.
I applied for a couple of jobs. I can’t let go of this itching in my brain that my new boss won’t be supportive. I’ve spent time thinking is this the anxiety talking but honestly it’s nagging at me.
I am thinking of getting my son on disability. He has cancer and mental health issues. Can anyone shed light on how to start the process?