Instagram posts

These are some of my instagram posts (non-beauty related) I have posted the last few weeks. You can totally see my headspace is all over the place a lot of the time.

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And yes fun was had by me at least

On my birthday. This is picture heavy so I hope you enjoy

All the above are from the dinner date with Hubby. He took me to his work to “show me off” and I had a couple drinks. One was diet coke with Evan Williams Cherry Whiskey. It was ggggoooodddd! Then I mentioned it was my birthday and I got  Cardinal Bomb. (I live in MO so duh lol) It was only good as it was free. I really hate red bull which it had in it. I then wanted to try the Honey whiskey. I was silly as I requested it straight and well… it tasted like burnt honey so the bartender put sprite in it. Of course by the end I couldn’t even taste it. My husband and I had a wonderful time there. Next we went to the Outback. Can you believe I have never been there! I think it is overrated in general but it was disappointing either. I was so stuffed. I had originally wanted to go to a movie but nothing I wanted to watch was playing (stupid small town!) so we thought about going to the touristy strip area but it wasn’t even 11 and I was pretty done. HA. We ended up going to a friends house who has the cutest dog ever!

His name is Maverick. I so want one!

Next morning I lazied around hanging out with the hubby before he went to work… taking pictures of our doggy Fudge. Then six awesome hours of alone time in the house as the boys were at my parents. I watched Scandal and made a couple youtube videos. It was AWESOME! Then I went to my parents for my birthday party. We had dinner, cake, (jello poke cake my favorite) and played clue. It was a perfect party!

****I thought I had posted this already but I don’t see it.

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Blog makeup: http://themakeupslashphotographywhisperer.wordpress.com/
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Halloween Family Fun

I use to love Halloween more than I do now. It was my second favorite behind Christmas. I don’t know if I am getting crabby in my old age or the overpriced costumes piss me pff that much! lol

Anyway here is the few pictures I took in regards to the Holiday. My two oldest did not want to dress up. I swiftly advised them if they don’t dress up as SOMETHING they aren’t going. It’s no fun for the people who bought candy to just give random strangers kids candy without some entertainment!

***** RANT ALERT *******

And while I am at it. WHY WHY WHY do we not make kids tell jokes anymore. I am so disgusted that this tradition is just becoming a greed holiday instead of what i was ended for… as a way to celebrate the dead and ward away evil spirits and then rejoice in a bountiful harvest. Granted I don’t know how jokes come in but dang it it takes the fun away from an awesome tradition. GRRR — side note my kids had jokes BUT even the adults giving away candy doesn’t care anymore. Bluck only about five houses even asked for them. So irritating!

********** Rant Over **************

So my oldest decided to be a zombie. My middle son someone dead and for the third year in a row in the same ratty costume my youngest was spiderman.

My oldest son’s friend let me do her make up. She did Cosplay as a female Sam Winchester from Supernatural.

And the rest of the pictures from the night.

And at some point some random dude at a house put green ink/coloring on my middle son who hated it. He is not one to enjoy much human interaction.

So that is the round up of the night. Just one little instagram picture.

Candy Overload

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Blog makeup: http://themakeupslashphotographywhisperer.wordpress.com/
Blog Personal: https://iammyownisland.wordpress.com/
Vlog Youtube channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/thepseudotherapist/videos             Makeup Youtube channel: http://www.youtube.com/channel/UC51O0ZuFBW-uEUMoQ0eFrrA/videos

Birthday Party Video

Please check out my latest Vlog.

EEP my birthday just passed

And I am not ready for it!

And I survived somehow!  lol

Since I turned 34 every year in October I get restless and feel my mortality. I get melancholy about all the choices I have made or didn’t make.and about how my life isn’t the awesome fairy tale I dreamt about as a child. This year is worse in a different way. Three years ago it was about regretting my marriage and learning the grass is not greener during an eight month separation. Learning the hard way there is something innately wrong with me internally as even though eighty pounds slimmer no matter the place or how I attract alcoholics…. There was the high school sweetheart reconnect… The military man… The soul mate after two dates but mean drunk… Do I need to pathetically go on?

My husband realized we were meant for each other and reconciled which left last years as wanting a baby as my youngest went into the first grade. Alas, I can’t have anymore with my husband (he was kind enough to step up to the plate on that one) And well see above as to why I have no intention of dating/having sex with anyone else. The grass is not greener on the other side when it comes to me!

This year appears to be a midlife crisis of epic proportion. Deep anxiety and depression and this overwhelming feeling of a wasted life. My mental health issues have never been so bad in 36 years. I have tried a couple different therapist and medications and many days I feel like I am hanging on a thread. I totally need a new life or at the very least a hobby. So my children are into youtube as well as me for beauty tips. I decided to start making my own. I made this a couple weeks ago starting to discuss my feelings and fears that my age is causing. And what I would tell my 18 year old self.

If you have time… please check it out.

INSTA MEME

Amen

I want to get to a space where this Ian true for me.

One day as the goal is progress not perfection… Right?  😀