What the f… Friday

My mom is bitching at me in a text about my dogs not being potty trained. I’m so freaking done with lectures. I haven’t even replied. I’m anxiously waiting a phone call about it. Wtf. My mood is between super anxious at being a failure to having the confidence to be successful. If you can’t

The fool’s journey

I just pulled my tarot of the day. The question I mediated on was what do I need to know about today. I got the card 0 the fool. I think it’s perfect card for today as my intuition says it’s about my journey of being my own boss doing what I love helping people.

I did something

I signed up for a certification for the certified life coach classes. When researching it gives legitimacy to becoming one and I’m hoping will give me the skills to be successful. I want to be my own boss this time next year. I’ve been thinking of a business name but not sure remotely if one.

Welp 45 years and here’s a few thoughts

I’m proud to be 45 I wear it like a badge of honor. I sit here looking back and am thinking I have been through some things. I am confident in who I am and without those good and bad times I wouldn’t know who I am today. Who am I? I am divorced mother

New day

And it’s a Saturday so no work bs to get me down. Just me and my regular self loathing thoughts. Monday is my birthday ill be 45. I’m not surprised I’ve been lucky enough I live this long what I’m surprised about is where I am in life. I look back at twenty year old

Dark place

I’m in overwhelming heart and soul pain. I want to end it but I won’t. I know this pain will pass but while you’re in it… it’s horrible. My birthday is Monday and I can’t even think why I was born for. What’s the point of it all. I’m a loser and my existence is

Dreading the day

So last night I was doing my routine of talking to my boyfriend when my work phone went off for texts several times. The last one I leaned over to peek who it was and it was a client upset over something and alluding to taking all her pills to not have to deal with

What a grumpy week

My job this week has been getting on my nerves. It’s not so much the clients but my one co worker. I just don’t get how she gets to be so unhelpful and the point of her job. Her lack of self awareness pisses me off and how everyone else makes excuses for her. I

You know you’re cranky

You know you’re cranky when Even the clients about me. Yesterday it took all my sheer will to not be rude to a couple of clients. My day was just one irritable moment. And my Co worker and boss didn’t help. I could feel the negative energy in the room yesterday morning for our meeting.

Hmmm

I always wonder about people I follow and interact on here when they disappear. That is a struggle in this platform. People come and go too much sometimes with no answers. I hope all the people I’ve lost along the way are doing well.