Well final day

This day can’t get over soon enough. This week has dragged on. I’ve decided to just play nice as really who cares. If I couldn’t make a difference while employed then how so I expect when leaving. There is nothing to gain. I remembered this morning not only did my bipolar sent me to my

Do you leave things unsaid

It’s 4:07 in the morning again. Just woke up from a horribly vivid dream and I’m angry. Life isn’t what it should be. I have two days left of this job. I’m debating on telling the lady off as to why I’m leaving. Then I think is it necessary? It’s a toxic environment and peoples

Seasons of life

I feel I’m in a season of life of maturity in a lot of ways. I finally see my value. I like not living with a partner. I like knowing who I am flawed and all. I struggle with certain areas still and might always. I have some acceptance but still strive to be better.

Sunday morning musings

This week for the most part has been perfect. I was on a staycation. And I didn’t get even close to what I wanted to accomplish BUT that’s ok. I made up for it in fuzzy warm feelings. My boyfriend has been here since Wednesday. My oldest was here two days and that meant other

Sitting scared

I have this next week off. I’m fearful I won’t accomplish what I want to get done. Then I fear the fear will win. Just silly rumination’s in my brain. I have the desire but fail at execution. I’m up early as I’m worried for my nineteen year old who woke up in his sleep

Finally some good news

I got the official hire letter. Signed and sent back. It seems like less money then quoted but still with the benefits and the fact I will have a pension instead of 401k I think it’ll work out. I could have heard them wrong too who knows. I’m going to wait until after my vacation

What’s worth fighting for?

I was called into the office today to be the next step down from written up. It’s a “coaching” thing. I fully think it’s bullshit as I’m not costing company money. It’s not the quality of my notes or how I do my job and I know I’m forgoing a bonus due to not having

When being a nice person sucks

I feel the urge to count my eggs before chickens due to niceties my company doesn’t deserve. I don’t have the official letter to start my new job just an offer contingent to the background check. I know it’s foolish to warn my boss that I am quitting without it being formal yet I feel

Million steps forward million and half back

Got great news I have a conditional start date as long as pass the background. Which should be no issue. It’s not until July first so that sucks but a light at end of tunnel. I have a tarot reading party that last time I said I’d do for free but they gave me money.

Up early

I went to bed with anxiety and stress over running me. I was hoping to sleep as long as possible but nope I’m awake two hours before my alarms. now what to do? I feel on the edge of a cold/allergies coming on. It’s annoying my body can’t make a decision much like my mind.