Jealousy

I got my bonus tomorrow its not much but something is better than nothing. I am jealous though as another coworker full well knowing we aren’t suppose to talk about what we each make tells me she’s get like 4000 dollars this is triple what I’m getting. I am jealous as i am an excellent

When to listen

I have a buying problem. I currently want something a little pricey. It’s a new planner. I dont need it and frankly I’m not the best at keeping up with them other than work. I always have good intentions but really i just collect them. I am sitting at the check out for my latest

Subsided

The ex drama has subsided in my mind. Staying busy and sleeping has helped. That and you guys and the knowing if you have to say that stuff out of the blue in a text the likely head of it being all try is false. It hurt me to read it but that’s OK too

Self worth

I woke up realizing this morning the thing about the text my ex sent isn’t about his love or lack of love or that he has moved on and is supposedly happy… it’s that i spent the majority of my life not loving myself and looking back when i did i was probably manic. I’m

Something is going on

I haven’t had an appetite or been eating much in the last month. I started noticing it this last week. I can’t finish dinner and hardly eat a breakfast or lunch. As an emotional eater and food as comfort im not sure what’s going on. In fact it’s almost like i have to make myself

My feelings are hurt and i don’t know what to do

I got this text at 521 am from my ex husband. I believe it stems from my not allowing our son to go on vacation because i can’t trust him to not drink and drive with the child. Also my youngest doesn’t want to go. So instead of putting the child in the middle i

Introspection

This has been heavy on my mind. In fact it’s 430 am and I’ve usually been getting up at five but the tossing and turning thinking about it made me give up on sleep. Now with that said… is that complaining or just facts? I use to feel if i shared my mental health struggles

In for a challenge

The blog lampelina set a no complaining challenge for improved mood. I’m going to do it. After the week i had last week… I’m desperate for some positivity. I can not promise but I’m going to really really really try. 😜

Covid free at this time

As my title suggests my test came back negative. I felt it would but anxiety made me worry too much about it. Now I’m laying here after running some errands and i feel discombobulated. I think it’s because this week was so emotional for me. And i think/ hope all that is played out. I

What about my heart?

My heart is telling me it’ll all be ok. By brain is screaming profanities at me about everything that is wrong with me and life. I was up at 430… today is going to be a struggle already. I have to take a covid test tomorrow since i was exposed in order to go to