I just can’t leave things well enough alone. I’m searching for something anything to feel alive and yet I know just living is enough right? Doing my best always trying to be a better me. Interacting with people and making friends comes with a lot of expectations I place on myself. I enjoy having the friends but wonder if i I can sustain it.
I feel the rush to make bad choices and fall into old patterns that don’t serve me well. It’s Causing my anxiety and I just don’t know how to remedy it. The thought loops are obnoxious.