Something is amiss

Things are going good on the surface of my life. My dads surgery went fabulous. He will most likely come home today. My relationship is there though I fell in this area something is off. Way off. Work is so promising. I am really liking my supervisor and I feel I can do this work.

It’s just my sleep has been very off I don’t feel depressed yet more like emotionally exhausted. I can’t shake it. I feel disconnected and that there is no joy down deep but on the surface I am happy. It’s this duality that I am just not sure how to “fix” if it even needs to be or can. It just makes me wonder if I can ever have a long normal period of happiness? Will life be joyful and worth really living?

7 thoughts on “Something is amiss

  1. I’m glad that your dad’s surgery went well and things are looking good with the new job. I hope that now that the surgery and job transition are behind you you’ll be able to get back on track with your sleep.

    1. Thank you I’m starting to get those not productive thoughts in my head is weird it’s like when we thrive in chaos or maybe not thrive but are use to it when things get unchaotic my mind revolts.

  2. Glad your dads surgery went well. I am also happy to hear about your job. As far as the happiness part, well I’m kinda there with you. I guess one day at time….sending well wishes your way.

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