Let it all burn

I sit here this morning looking at the mess I made in my bedroom trying to organize and clean it and I just have this urge to burn it all down. I know throughout my life I’ve gotten impulsive thoughts that I knew were bad. What do you do with these thoughts?

I spent too much money yesterday going out with Co workers I actually like. Then they invited one I don’t and the night started sucking. Maybe I’m not meant to socialize. Maybe I’m too far into my thoughts to just be. Maybe I haven’t made the progress I thought I did or maybe I just woke up insecure.

This constant bullshit in my head is too much today.

6 thoughts on “Let it all burn

  1. Hugs. My room is also a disaster and I’ve had similar thoughts. I’m not sure where they come from. It’s just so overwhelming I think.

    I’m sorry about the coworker. It usually takes one person for me to want to “nope” out of something.

    Take it easy on yourself!!!

  2. I use to have thoughts that I would kick people…or push them over a railing or something horrible and never be able to take it back. The doctor said it was OCD and I was fundamentally worried about hurting people and never being able to fix it. So, I did the CBT observe the thoughts and impulses and it helped a lot-even just to share it with someone…it didn’t feel so powerful and inevitable. Hope that helps!

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