Freaking sleep pattern

I use to be a predictable sleeper. Bed by 9ish up around 6ish. Now i fall asleep after dinner sometimes and get nothing accomplished. And up by 4am. It’s ridiculous really and I’m not sure what to do about it.

I have watched planner videos on YouTube and they present such an organized life. How do people do it? How do people find the energy and true desire to have a set morning/evening routine? I’m not exactly jealous more in awe of it and question its reality.

Bf and i have agreed to disagree on our argument. He finally reached out and i suppose i was more on the petty side for not myself. I don’t know if we will ever live together. Does that have to be the goal? I just say that as I’m not sure i can handle the mental capacity to deal with his mercurial ways.

Today I’ve decided is going to be a good day. I look forward to it actually but I’m already tired. Is this what getting older is like. Lol

5 thoughts on “Freaking sleep pattern

  1. So with you there on the loss of sleep patterns. Never used to worry about my sleep until about 4 years ago. Now it’s all over the shop. Yes there’s complicated (meds illness etc) with it all, but I dream of sleeping straight through for 7 hours. Just wanted to let you know your not alone, even though it can feel like it at 3am in the morning when your wide awake, Take care D.

  2. I’ve always been big on routine and organization because I find it makes my life easier; there’s less thought and mental energy required because I can really on my organization system to do some of the heavy lifting for me. But I think the routines where people cram a ton of different things in are more for performance value to show off than actual reality.

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