The ex drama has subsided in my mind. Staying busy and sleeping has helped. That and you guys and the knowing if you have to say that stuff out of the blue in a text the likely head of it being all try is false. It hurt me to read it but that’s OK too because i am human and with that comes emotions. It reminds me I’m on a good med regimine to have these emotions as i have been a zombie before… no good… also I’m proud of myself that i didn’t lash back out and i didn’t have dark thoughts over the bullshit.
On to other things that matter more like my sleep being all over the place and my appetite. Maybe these things are an evolution and i either need more sleep early because i now wake up naturally early or ??? Maybe the appetite thing is an indicator I’m in a better spot evolution as i don’t need to emotionally eat. Should i even be spending time looking at them as signs of something bad? I really don’t know.
Am i stressed out more then i think i am? Am i unhappy about something and don’t know it? I know worrying about it is stressful… does everything have to have meaning? Can it just be?