I haven’t had an appetite or been eating much in the last month. I started noticing it this last week. I can’t finish dinner and hardly eat a breakfast or lunch. As an emotional eater and food as comfort im not sure what’s going on. In fact it’s almost like i have to make myself eat dinner though i willingly cook it. I often feel nauseous after eating and I’m not over eating. I think i forgot to share that all my blood work came back negative yet i feel something is wrong. I get up early in the morning without the alarm 90% of Time and am exhausted by eight at night. Maybe I’ve somehow moved past emotionally eating but what are the chances without therapy? I pray I’m worried for nothing and I’ve just changed but a forty year coping mechanism just doesn’t go away i would think.
In other news thank you all for your support today. It really helped. I’m still licking my wound but it’s healing. I am thankful it didn’t switch my brain to die mode. It gives me hope i am healing and being more self confident and loving.