What about my heart?

My heart is telling me it’ll all be ok. By brain is screaming profanities at me about everything that is wrong with me and life. I was up at 430… today is going to be a struggle already.

I have to take a covid test tomorrow since i was exposed in order to go to my parents as my dad is terrified of getting it and i don’t blame him. The thing is I’m perpetually potentially exposed as i work in people’s lives. I can try and mitigate the chances but people are getting it without symptoms so…. i pray i do not have it. As then I’ll have to admit my mistake and well i don’t want to be sick. I’m praying the vaccine i got is still working.

I’m going to attempt to go thorough today with a kind heart to override my brain. I pray i can as this is exhausting hating yourself for no good reason.

6 thoughts on “What about my heart?

  1. Hang in there and be deliberate about what you want to believe. Cookie cutter Christianity that leans right was NOT for me. I am a liberal and i chose a liberal view of Christianity. That works for me. Best of luck.

  2. It truly is exhausting,hating yourself for no reason. Few people get that. Hope all goes swimmingly and you have a great weekendπŸ’œ

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