My heart is telling me it’ll all be ok. By brain is screaming profanities at me about everything that is wrong with me and life. I was up at 430… today is going to be a struggle already.
I have to take a covid test tomorrow since i was exposed in order to go to my parents as my dad is terrified of getting it and i don’t blame him. The thing is I’m perpetually potentially exposed as i work in people’s lives. I can try and mitigate the chances but people are getting it without symptoms so…. i pray i do not have it. As then I’ll have to admit my mistake and well i don’t want to be sick. I’m praying the vaccine i got is still working.
I’m going to attempt to go thorough today with a kind heart to override my brain. I pray i can as this is exhausting hating yourself for no good reason.