I went to my last client of the day and just like a flipped switch i became depressed and had some ideation. Then the time with the client was for shit and i feel guilty for that. Ugh… i pulled the high priestess card this morning and it’s about intuition so I’m wondering if i subconsciously know something is around the corner to knock me down. That’s the thing about any spirituality and mental health. It’s so based on interpretation when the Bible you take a verse and figure out what is means for your current situation and life. I do want to be spiritual and find something that guides me and gives me comfort. I don’t know if i can though as I’ll always have bipolar.