My mood is plummeting. I spent almost four hours with someone today who was suicidal. I lay here worried about how she’s doing as i took her to the er to get a bed at the hospital. I am ruminating on my memories of being that hopeless and desperate for relief. It’s triggered me into feeling worthless and just plan messed up. I’m not sure how to change my mood. I guess wait it out. I wish i had someone to cuddle with and tell me it’ll all be alright. I feel so alone.

7 thoughts on “Plummeting

  1. Cuddle with a stuffed animal,I do. Not the same but comforting minus drama.
    Sometimes,the only way out of the dark space is through. I am riding it out with you in spiritđź’ś

  2. Sending you my best wishes. It is heartbreaking that you have to support others, whilst struggling yourself. How about happy music? Do you have a weighted blanket?

      1. I find the weighted blanket really helps me. I am so glad you could sleep. Take good care of yourself. I hope there are better days ahead for you.

  3. You say this made you feel worthless but truly it shows the opposite – you helped save someone’s life today. You were with them at their lowest and you didn’t give up on them. Your life is so valuable. I hope you feel better soon x

  4. I know you feel alone and it sucks, but you are strong and can make it through this. I’m sure the person you helped is very thankful!

  5. I think the fact that you spent 4 hours with a client shows you’re not worthless. It shows you’re someone who cares rather than someone who doesn’t give a shit.

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