I had a couple comments on my last post that made sense. Especially the one that after three years in a relationship to start playing head games where there really hasn’t been is unlikely. It makes me feel better and I’ve got to trust it wasn’t some weird head game. So on with life i go.

I’m in some kind of mental limbo. I feel good yet anxious and slightly depressed. I’m longing for a different life but what life is that? I take things too seriously and to heart which aren’t meant that way. I feel everything right now. It doesn’t seem healthy.

Will this ever get better? Will I have recovery from my mind? This is where it all gets jumbled up in my mind. It’s recovery attainable because i can’t go cold turkey quitting my thoughts. And is recovery attainable for anybody even an alcoholic is one moment away from slipping even after years of sobriety of the circumstances are right. I wonder if this push in behavioral/ mental health arena is healthy as it seems to set us all up against each other and failure.

Anyway just some thoughts on my mind. Two steps forward three back. It’ll all lead me somewhere right?

2 thoughts on “Limbo

  1. Behavioral health is my nemesis. Behavior implies a choice. Bipolar often gives no choice. So yeah,they are setting many up to fail. It is not healthy at all.

  2. I think we can always learn from what we go through, but with chronic mental illness, recovery is more likely to look like things being relatively easier rather than things being easy.

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