Tw: Fully in a spiraling place

I had a client today tell me i need to be more assertive with her otherwise she needs a different worker. I give her credit for advocating for herself and being truthful to my face. I ended up being helpful i feel in the long run today. But i feel like a failure not only professionally but as a parent. I’m trying to stop myself from saying in my head I’m a shit person and don’t deserve to be here breathing. I don’t have intent and i am safe as I’m not alone. I say how dark my thoughts are just to convey how devastating it is to have so many weeks with no bad thoughts to feeling so heart broken and in mental pain. It hurts from my brain to my heart to my soul. I have to function though i still have a full work day. Please pray or send positive mojo my way i so desperately need it.

6 thoughts on “Tw: Fully in a spiraling place

  1. You are not alone,Girl. I am struggling,too. These jaunts of feeling ok to feeling hopeless are like being on a torture rack. Pick an extreme and commit,brain.
    Sending oodles of good juju and hugs your way.

  2. Whether or not you act assertively with a given client, that doesn’t define who you are. You are a good, caring person. I think we all flail a bit sometimes in figuring out how to express that caring most effectively.

  3. Hey. I see you. You are not alone. I’m sorry you are feeling like this. I know how devastating it is to be going along okay and then WHAM to not be okay. I see you.

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