I had a client today tell me i need to be more assertive with her otherwise she needs a different worker. I give her credit for advocating for herself and being truthful to my face. I ended up being helpful i feel in the long run today. But i feel like a failure not only professionally but as a parent. I’m trying to stop myself from saying in my head I’m a shit person and don’t deserve to be here breathing. I don’t have intent and i am safe as I’m not alone. I say how dark my thoughts are just to convey how devastating it is to have so many weeks with no bad thoughts to feeling so heart broken and in mental pain. It hurts from my brain to my heart to my soul. I have to function though i still have a full work day. Please pray or send positive mojo my way i so desperately need it.