I have fear for my middle son. I fear him dying by suicide. I know he has the thoughts and because of this i don’t push him too hard. I’m supportive and probably enabling. The thing is if something happened to me and my mom he’d be lost. And that’s not benefiting him. I’ve encouraged him right now to maybe live with his dad and have the same hours as him at his job. I just don’t know. I don’t feel like a failure exactly but yet i did fail him somehow i feel.