I slept for total crap last night. It was to be expected. Today has so many variables. I feel in my heart it will be fine but this time its my mind saying what if this what if that. I am in awe of my son for all his issues and our conflicts he remains calm in his medical stuff and he’s been through so much. At least he says so but even as a child he has put on a brave face for me about it all. While i sit here hoping for the best yet fearing the worst.