
Meds are working as best they can. I don’t feel depressed or without joy. Yet as usual they are not a cure for bipolar. Nor are they able to “fix” self sabotage or maladaptive thinking patterns.
I know I’ve been talking of change a lot. I just want to use this good med cocktail to my advantage. I can’t seem to get momentum to actually start the process. Life is flashing by and for what?
Starting anything can be hard. I hesitated on going back to therapy for a few months. Then my first day back i couldn’t stop crying and I have no idea why. I left drained. But, the next day I felt lighter. A cycle I’m sure to repeat. Stay well.
I’m looking at that list and crap, I do pretty much all of those things! 😬