I’m sitting here thinking about death. I never want to die im scared of it. To not exist is scary. I keep thinking what if i don’t wake up in the morning? Why do i have these thoughts and fears? More so why do i get suicidal when i know i don’t want to die. I’m looping and it’s got me paranoid. I’m scared if i don’t die someone else i know will. I’ve been blessed to have my family for so long. Why do some people die and others live long lives? I’m listening to music trying to distract and write here to get it off my chest. I just want a break from my mind to be someone else without making life hard.