I could go on how this job makes me so anxious and I’m getting no where with job hunting. I could go on about how I’ve been spending money foregoing bills and screwed myself over. But what for? I make the same maladaptive choices over and over. It just breaks your spirit and really what’s the point to it all? I’m not feeling suicidal so that’s a plus and I’m not hopeless. I just wonder if i can change?