I went to dinner with my Co workers. It went better than last time. Overall I’m glad i went.
So far this weekend I’ve done a whole lot of nothing with a splash of a few insignificant things. I’m ok with that. Tomorrow is a us holiday so maybe I’ll manage to get my chores done.
Overall i feel decent with just a drop off melancholy. More pensive if things were different thoughts. Which i know many will not think a good thought pattern but it’s just an inkling so it is better. No dark thoughts and i am grateful for that.
I’m glad you went.
I’m glad you had a better experience than last time. I find social situations hard and when I have a really good time it makes my bad days worse because I feel like why can’t I just be happy and normal
I use to be such an extrovert but mental illness has effected my ability to be fearless. I still second guess what others think … hugs to us both for trying our best
I was bullied from a young age and so have always been an introvert, it’s only last year at 26 that I got help for the suicidal thoughts etc. It’s hard because I wonder who I am without the depression, like would I have been more outgoing? You know what I mean?
I totally get what you mean. I know it’s probably not healthy to dwell on it but i can’t not a lot. I feel like all i have are my thoughts.
Exactly. And people just say don’t think about it, it annoys me so much.