I want to join an online healthy lifestyle group. It costs money but is reasonable and has a menu and a different workout every day. Plus a support group. Im scared to fail again and waste money on it. I know this is fatalist thinking and will cause me to fail. Something has to give though i need to be healthier. Why do i 1) doubt myself and 2) live in fear? I want to be free. I know and understand the manifest ideas. Positivity and thankfulness. I just don’t cope that way. It’s time to change and be proud of myself. I just need to do it. 21 days for a habit right?