I think another blog i follow was talking about my blog bringing him down. Some things he said just lined up so i don’t think I’m paranoid.
Anyway it made me wonder if i have a victim mentality. I can kinda see it. All this why me how do i change but don’t change bullshit. How much of me is my mental illness and how much is a poor mindset?
I’ve been thinking of deleting the whole damn thing not because of that but because I’m tired of it all. Im tired of me. I don’t mean to bring people down. I want to make real connections and i love this community. But what am i really doing?
I try to post the good with the struggling. If i see something uplifting i share it. I do sometimes feel like a victim of my circumstances but i want to be a voice that says ultimately you get back up and you keep living.