Mind blown

Im terrified of dying. It’s visceral. Which makes my thoughts of suicide confusing to me. I have noticed since this pandemic i haven’t felt that way. It is refreshing. I’d like to think I’m better at coping but the truth is my stress level is oddly lower though i have issues falling asleep.

Anyway im doing well currently but it is the weekend and they tend to go smoother then work weeks. I hope you all are well and if you feel like it share what your fears are. I want to be supportive 😀❤

6 thoughts on “Mind blown

  1. I feel like I’m in a constant state of depression most of the time. Most of the time I would much rather not live but too scared of doing anything about it because I’m afraid I’ll fuck it up somehow and end up far worse off than now due to complications/damages that I have done trying to kill myself. I think my one fear is being alone. Which is ironic because I want people to leave me alone. I’m so complicated.

  2. Knowing we could die in the very near future makes suicidal tendencies redundant. But if I was still suicidal despite the virus I’d likely just not bother washing my hands, etc. I’m also less stressed and I think that’s because people are distant.

  3. I used to be terrified of dying. 6 years ago I almost did. I had sepsis with toxic shock. I can remember the moment I slipped into a coma but I remember nothing else after that till I woke up. I realised that if I had never woken up I would have known nothing. The only reason I’m still afraid is I don’t want to leave my family, but again I would never know. I’m less scared than I used to be. I’ve often wondered if this is the dream. The only problem with that is you don’t know what you’re going to wAke up to. Great post

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