I think I’m manic. I just spent a lot of money and i don’t care other then to journal here. I honestly kept trying to talk myself out of it with no luck. I think I’m done now though. Plus i ran out of money to pay bills. I feel numb to it. I was very paranoid earlier today that hasn’t happen in a long time. That should have been a sign. Ugh why didn’t i recognize it during therapy today?