I had a melt down at work. I actually cried. My boss was supportive but no real solutions on lessening my work load.
I need a way to learn to separate work thoughts from off work thoughts. They are so intermingled.
My son is having difficulty with friends at school. I want to fix it but can’t. He’s a great kid though a little odd. He just doesn’t fit in anywhere. I know he’s depressed but I don’t think meds or therapy will help. I don’t think it’s too that point. But of course it makes me feel bad and worry.
It’s my day off from work so my mood is ok. Just can’t shut my brain off. I tried online counseling again I got a free week through a different company and this counselor had been very ineffective. I think online just isn’t for me. I told him I feel like nothing and needed to talk to someone. He said use my coping skills but never asked me what those skills might be. Sigh.
On a side note I got a message from WordPress been on here six years. I think four had been this blogs identity. I had an anonymous one before that I deleted. But man does time fly.
It’s real difficult to separate from work. You become your job, don’t you? I’m a doctor. I’m a teacher. No. No, you’re not. You work as a doctor. You work as a teacher. But you’re more than just your job. English, particularly American English, kind of ignores that. And being busy at work is kind of two sided, isn’t it? On one hand, you’re obviously important. Only you can do that work. On the other hand, it can feel like you’re expected to give up the rest of your life to DO that work, meaning the rest of your life isn’t really important. So, you’re vitally important, but your life means nothing other than work. That’s the hidden meaning (or, that’s the way I see it).
I feel bad that you’re so frustrated.
One thing, please – and I don’t mean to overstep any boundaries here – but please don’t make up your son’s mind for him. Give him the option of talking to someone. If a time comes when medication is recommended, you can talk with your son and the doctor. But let your son decide if therapy might work. I know you’ve not had the best experiences with therapy (and the online stuff sounds terrible!) but…he’s not you. He might find someone he clicks with. ❤
Thank you… You did not overstep. Your right on all accounts. I am not my job just as I am not just bipolar. As far as my son. I will ask him if he wants therapy. I’m just assuming he’s not and I could be overlooking some resources.
❤