This isn’t good. I’m thinking of death this morning. Will people miss me… Will people come to my funeral… How will it happen… Will I see it coming? I’m going to stay busy and use distraction to counteract these dark thoughts. It’s so frustrating I love this holiday I should be enjoying it. But maybe it’s me. I need to take my thoughts by the reigns and turn them around… It’s that easy right (sarcasm) I can at least try to be more positive I do think that helps.