Life is hard in my head right now. I just can’t move forward. I feel I’m at a brick wall. This book I’m reading says i need to regulate with diet exercise less to no caffeine. It’s all I know but then at a chance to be well why don’t I jump at it? What holds me back? So many other people can live a clean life why can’t I? I feel there is a locked door and I don’t have the right key. God help me.