I use to be a force to be recon with. I am a fragment of that person now. I gotta say that person wasn’t perfect but she loved herself and didn’t have all this worry and bullshit. Do I go off my meds to become her again? How do I weed out the self destructive her? The angry never thought of others her? Do I wait for my children to grow up and start over? I have seven more school years not to mention college for my youngest. I can’t be like this another seven years. But to be fair I’m better then I was a year ago so I need to give myself some credit. Still I want to shine. But I’m fearful with worry. I so need to unfuck myself.