I’ve had high anxiety today. It started when my app for tarot cards had the fool for my card of the day. I don’t even read them anymore but it caught my eye.
Then the ex texted me and it bothered me today. I wonder what I could have done differently. Where I went wrong. Why I want good enough.
Right now I’m sitting here thinking of Chris Cornell and death. I just want to go to bed but it’s too early for that. No one is immune to tragedy or shit things happening to them. I just want a different life and I don’t know how to make it different. The thing is my life isn’t bad. Is this fucking mind of mine. How do I get outside of it? If I could figure that out I could be happy.